I haven't celebrated Halloween for years, but on my walk to class this morning, I saw a few kids dressed up for school. How cute :) I never really had a costume. I think the closest costume I ever got was when my mom drew whiskers on my cheeks. I don't feel like I missed out though. I don't love candy that much! But sometimes I do wish I had a Disney princess costume at one point.
This week has been pretty stressful. I don't mean from school. There is some kind of stronger stress brewing inside me. I'm having trouble sleeping and have woken up in the middle of the night for the past three nights. I have not woken up once since I moved into my apartment. The first time I woke up, I searched my bed for bedbugs. This is weird because we caught the bedbug over a week ago. I found myself waking up every few minutes to check my bed and I felt really paranoid. The second time, I didn't look for bedbugs. I woke up feeling upset and stressed and I haven't figured out the reason yet. I didn't wake up as many times as the first night though. Last night (the third time), I woke up and I was scared. I rarely have nightmares and when I do, they're all I think about the next day. In my dream, there were a group of people with axes. They said "Let the games begin," kinda like in The Hunger Games movie, and next thing I remember, my family and I were running for our lives. When I finally stopped to catch my breath, I realized my parents were gone...
Sometimes I think my dreams mean something, especially if it's something out of the ordinary. We learned a little bit about dreams in psychology, but I'm interested in learning more. Maybe I'll decide to write about dreams for my research paper due Monday.
Honestly, I don't know what's happening. I'm not really stressed about school. I'm more stressed about our apartment situation/ bedbugs, finding a new major, and my parents. I haven't gone home since Labor Day and I guess it's safe to say I'm a little homesick. But really, I want to go home to eat good food :P Money is also becoming an issue. I'm running a little low since I didn't win any scholarships this school year. I haven't asked my parents for money yet, and I don't ever plan to. Money has always been kinda tight at home and my dad is on the verge of losing his job.
Why don't I get a job then?
Well, I have a few good reasons. One, I rather spend my free time relaxing and doing schoolwork. Two, the neighborhood I live in is just houses, houses, houses. The closest stores or restaurants aren't very close at all. I don't have a car, and because money's so tight, I'm not planning to get one either. Third, I don't even have that much free time to begin with. Even a part-time job requires a minimum number of hours per week.
I really look forward to life after college. Job with good money, car, shopping, food, and (hopefully) living with my boyfriend :)
Have a happy Halloween! I hope everyone will be safe tonight :)